are you okay, fiona?

fionaapplelive.jpgwhile i have never performed at the historic ryman auditorium before a few thousand people, i can understand that it’s scary to sing in front of an audience. don’t get me wrong, i’ve always liked fiona apple. but hasn’t she been doing this for a while now?

the notoriously troubled, manic songstress spent much of her performance squatting center stage, staring at the floor, or screaming her lyrics and forcefully banging on the piano keys. to make things even more strange, at one point she told the story behind a track off when the pawn… it went something like this: “this one’s about an ex-boyfriend who used to always shower me with compliments when we were in front of other people. then when they weren’t looking, he would bite my face and say, [with a really creepy whisper] ‘i’m going to kill you.’” damn, woman, is that why you’re so fucked up?

inexplicably, that’s what most of the audience wanted to see. when fiona would smack herself with the microphone stand, the girls would gleefully scream, “we love you, fiona!” the best part was toward the end, when after apologizing for her onstage antics, she tried her hand at comedy: “i’ve been in a bad mood for the past 28 years.” even though she was kidding around, all i could think was, yes, indeed, fiona. yes, indeed.